When I was 17….

Hi everyone, so today is going to be a more personal blog entry! I have always been a fan of the MTV show “When I was 17” so I decided to give you guys a glimpse into my world, so get buckled up and lets go back 13 years….when I was 17 years of age!

I had been in Canada only 5 years when I was 17 but it felt like a millennium – I missed Trinidad so much, I moved to Canada one month shy of my 12th birthday and it was pure misery for a couple of years. At age 17 I had broken through my “awkward” teenage years and as my first rebellious act of “figuring” myself out – I coloured my hair BLONDE! But it wasn’t one simple shade of blonde, I had a variety of blonde streaks so it looked oddly good. I gained a couple of friends during this time, one or two which I still talk to today! “Hi Irina!! πŸ™‚ if you’re reading this lol!

I was working my first job at a clothing store and that sparked my love for fashion – as well as my love for shopping whenever I got sad during those years and well I was sad A LOT during high school. But nothing “retail therapy” couldn’t fix. It wasn’t the “best” years of my life at all actually – I always felt like something was missing and that I was just “passing through”. I am always grateful that I got to experience high school before the launch of social media because that would have been horrible! My heart goes out to kids that deal with it today!

So life wise, I had friends, a job, I bought tons of clothes lol and I found my love and passion for makeup! I would look through beauty magazines wondering how in the world do makeup artists get models to look so good!! I knew they were beautiful models without makeup but the creative side of me wanted to know more. I tried my hand at “sewing” fashionable things together LOL – that didn’t work out as well as I had planned so I crossed fashion designer off my list!

I was at a cross roads for what I “wanted” to be when I entered University – I remember meeting with my guidance counsellor and I remember VERY clearly telling him I wanted to be a “Geneticist” but him trying to sway me off my path saying I needed to have 99% in EVERY science course. Mind you, I was ALWAYS a very good student but being 17 and only 5 years into this country I felt maybe he knew best – which brings me to one of my regrets at that age – I should NOT have given up so easily!!! Back then I believed everything people said – now I am the most skeptical person EVER! Takes A LOT for me to believe someone’s “word”.

At 17 I got a part in my high school play, I loved acting and singing but I discovered my crippling stage fright as well! As much as I loved it, I choked every time during practice so needless to say, I was not Broadway star bound after that discovery. I also learned of my intense desire to be private at 17 – ask any of my high school friends, they always got mad at me that I never told them much private details lol.

All in all, when I was 17 I discovered a lot about myself, my strengths and my weaknesses – if someone had told me then that 13 years down the road I would be all over the internet – I would bet money I wouldn’t be! So the good part in looking back is being so thankful for my evolution as a person, I am very grateful for all of you that have started with me on this online journey – I have no clue what the future holds but I’m pretty darn excited!!!

PS: I have an exciting post in less than a month for you guys so look out for that!!

Love,

Zenorah

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4 thoughts on “When I was 17….

  1. Of course I’m reading this! I support everything you do. Thanks for being an AMAZING friend the past 13+ years. Yes, you have most definitely evolved as a person and learned much about yourself along the way. Yet you’ve never changed what makes you who you are at your core. Your ability and desire to understand, listen and emotionally heal others ( myself included) has never wavered. Thank you for mentioning me in your blog πŸ™‚ Most of all thank you for all the laughs, therapy and bringing me back to life.
    Love always,
    Irina

    1. I wanted to cry when I read this! THANK YOU so much for all the years we have shared, your friendship is one of the things I hold dear to my heart. We have been through so much in 13+ years it’s crazy to think so much time has gone by. And you have helped me through many things as well, sometimes when you didn’t even know it =) You allowed me to be myself despite my unique character at times and I love you for that!! You have always been selfless in our friendship & have always been there for me when I needed you so I love you chica!
      ~Zenorah

  2. Of course I’m reading this! I support everything you do. Thanks for being an AMAZING friend the past 13+ years. Yes, you have most definitely evolved as a person and learned much about yourself along the way. Yet you’ve never changed what makes you who you are at your core. Your ability and desire to understand, listen and emotionally heal others ( myself included) has never wavered. Thank you for mentioning me in your blog πŸ™‚ Most of all, thank you for all the laughs, therapy and bringing me back to life.
    Love always,
    Irina

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